Hello Saturday, finally I'm here to do some update again. Sorry for casting aside this blog, because of my laziness & also I had created a new private blog for ma love, that's why. Anyway, it's a bored saturday night. Keep on studying until my brain going to burst! But no choice yeah, exams is around the corner now! I have no more time for me to waste again. I must do well in this exam, don't want to waste any unnecessary money from my mom again. Sometimes I really feel like giving up, it's really hard for me to continue. But I know I can't give up just like that, damn contradiction right? Haha.

Alright, can someone just teach me how to love? I'd gave in everything that I could, but why I'm still getting the hurt from the person that I love? I knew that she loved you a lot before, and also you hurt her a lot. You tried everything just to avoid to hurt her again, I understand it. But you always forget about me when you're talking about how much you had hurt her before. I'm just a girl, me not an iron man. I do have feelings too. Why can't you just let go the past like how she did, she did it well but why you can't? Why must you keep thinking of she can't get over it? You said that's just because of the guilt of hurting her, because of the guilt? I don't know. I had enough of it. The way you cared for her are also the way you hurting me. Maybe, we are just not suitable for each other. I don't know what to say anymore after the fights, that night really drives me crazy. I still remember every words that came out from your mouth, it really hurts a lot. I don't know myself is that failure until you say it out. I don't know that I'm that bad that fail that sucks, that make you not satisfy with everything.

Although that you act like nothing after the fight, but do you think we can still be the same like before? I don't even know how to. There's many many more problems between us, and I just can't solve any of it. Maybe, everything is gonna near the end.

Goodnight.