"You've noticed a changed huh? She never calls you anymore. She hardly texts you; when she does text you she doesn't say sweet things like she used to. She takes her time to reply. When you start an argument you can tell she doesn't really give a fuck. She makes you feel pathetic. Other guys are starting to text her and she replies to them. You realize she's starting to move on; talking to other guys; going on dates. And now you're starting to realize how beautiful she is. She's amazing isn't she? Well too fucking bad cause you lost her. You were once her world; her everything. She really wanted you but you pushed her aside. you failed to realize she wasn't afraid to walk away. She was strong enough to let go. And now you suddenly love her? Do you even know how much pain you caused her? A fucking ton. She didn't come around with your "I miss you" bullshit. She's gone. She's simply over you. "
I saw this post on Facebook today, it's so true. I like it, so that I decided to post it up on my blog. There's no return button in life, cherish those people that be with you now, don't attach with regret later. :)
Just maybe I'm not strong as I think. I'm down here crying every night after I has done with my revision of the day. I'm done with my law paper 12/22 in last week, I'm not sure if I can get a nice grade for it. Next, is my psychology and economics paper. Okay, I rarely attend the lecture class for these two subjects. Because I found that I don't understand the tutor teaching method, so that I decided to study my own. Yes, it is very tough for me. That's why I'm down here crying every night, and I can tell no one about it. I'm totally fucked up myself now.
Okay next, I don't know recently my minds always came up with those negative thinking. I'm still blaming myself for the past. What if I didn't do that? What if what if what if ! That's no such thing as "what if?". Just fuck myself alright.
I miss you, my beloved. Looking forward to this coming Friday! You gotta accompany me for the whole day alright. I'm really down with my stressful life. I miss you. Sighs.
"Life is like a marathon. To get to the finish line, you have to get over all the obstacles."
Hello Saturday, finally I'm here to do some update again. Sorry for casting aside this blog, because of my laziness & also I had created a new private blog for ma love, that's why. Anyway, it's a bored saturday night. Keep on studying until my brain going to burst! But no choice yeah, exams is around the corner now! I have no more time for me to waste again. I must do well in this exam, don't want to waste any unnecessary money from my mom again. Sometimes I really feel like giving up, it's really hard for me to continue. But I know I can't give up just like that, damn contradiction right? Haha.
Alright, can someone just teach me how to love? I'd gave in everything that I could, but why I'm still getting the hurt from the person that I love? I knew that she loved you a lot before, and also you hurt her a lot. You tried everything just to avoid to hurt her again, I understand it. But you always forget about me when you're talking about how much you had hurt her before. I'm just a girl, me not an iron man. I do have feelings too. Why can't you just let go the past like how she did, she did it well but why you can't? Why must you keep thinking of she can't get over it? You said that's just because of the guilt of hurting her, because of the guilt? I don't know. I had enough of it. The way you cared for her are also the way you hurting me. Maybe, we are just not suitable for each other. I don't know what to say anymore after the fights, that night really drives me crazy. I still remember every words that came out from your mouth, it really hurts a lot. I don't know myself is that failure until you say it out. I don't know that I'm that bad that fail that sucks, that make you not satisfy with everything.
Although that you act like nothing after the fight, but do you think we can still be the same like before? I don't even know how to. There's many many more problems between us, and I just can't solve any of it. Maybe, everything is gonna near the end.
Goodnight.
I'm officially 18 years old now, I'm officially a young adult now. Time to grow up, time to be more mature. :)
So yeah, my birthday were celebrated with the craziest friends together. Thanks for all the surprises & thanks for all ya coming. I love all of you, everyone. :)
So, around 4pm babies came to fetch me, then we headed to Gurney to have our late lunch there & watch the Expandable 2. Okay, what I really want to say is, it's an awesome movie ! You'll be regret if you're not watching it. So, after the movie, we went to Straits Quay to have our dinner @ Delicious. Alright, here's the first surprise that they gave me, Xieyen, Freeman & Xujin. 3 of them suddenly came, so we had our dinner together. In the frist, I thought only 4 of us (Me, Neiz, Hooiping, Hern.), so when 3 of them suddenly came in, really surprised me.
After the dinner, we went to Library to have a drink there, chit-chat with them. Okay, the second surprise cominggg! Neiz suddenly ask me accompany her to toilet, then after that we went back to Library then I saw Peh is already there! Okay, before that she was lied to me say she need to study for her exam then couldn't celebrate together with me, but then she's there! Then the waiter & waitress of Library, hand with FerreroRoche chocolate and cake walking to me pass me the chocolate & wish me happy birthday. Then the band inside started to sing the birthday song. After blew the candles we started to have some fun, taking photo, playing with the cream & so on.
Well, I'm drunk after drinking too much of the beer. Then we went back to Neiz house, here's the last surprise. When we went in to her house, Alen & Zilei lighted another cake sing the birthday song to me again! So ya, there's the surprises that they did to me. Thanks a lot a lot, appreciated it. :)
Actually there's a lot to say, I'm lazy to type already. So I just summarize it, hope you all don't mind. Maybe will be do another update when I'm free. Photo will be upload soon, stay tuned. :)
Goodnight.
Study face! Nerd enough right? Hee.
Peekaboo! It's been a long time since I actually did a proper update of my blog. Been too busy for my A-level, that's why this blog became stagnant. Anyway, I'm getting used to my college life. New environment, met new people, discovered some things that is I never knew before. Actually it's quite fun in college, yet I miss my secondary school life. There's actually something different between college and secondary, I don't really know how to tell out the differences, but then I guess some of you that are studying in college right now should be know what I meant. So ya, I miss them, the gossip group
(Neiz En, Joey Kate, Alen Green, Hooi Ping, Gennie Lok).
It's been like a few months ago since I met her, it's so sad to say that, after all, last time we're that close before. I miss how we used to be. I understand that we both are really changed a lot, a lot. You busying for work, and I busying for study. I do still remember how close we are, but now we don't even talk to each other. Like those stranger. Really. Sometimes I wanted to text you like how we texted last time, but then in the end I give up. We're now in two different world, this is what we have to admit. I believe that your life is filled up with colorful stars now. And I'm glad to know about you're enjoying your pretty good life from your Instagram, and I hope you do happy with your life now. I miss you babe, how are you? :)
Tomorrow I'm dating with this 2 birdy girl ! I MISS THEM LIKE CRAZYYYYYY, REALLY! Can't wait to see them tomorrow! It will be a good good night for us. :D
and yes that's the end of this post. Gonna get myself back to study now, goodnight potatoes! Will be do another update soon. :)
Hello! This is gonna be a short update, because I'm really tired now. Alright, today's the first day of school, so I've started my college life now. Most of my classmate are from the international school, and I found that I'm really hard to communicate with them. Maybe it's because of I'm from those chinese school so that I'm not used to it yet. Well, I think I'll K.O on the bed soon. So ya, I'll update a proper post soon! I promise :)
I'm back from my HongKong trip. It's not really that fun. The weather there are hot like the sauna, that's why i didn't really enjoy myself there. And ofcos, I do miss my baby boo. It has been almost 3 weeks that we didn't meet each other already.
Sorry baby, sorry for always making you angry. Sometimes I just want you to understand what I want only, it's just that simple. Sorry for always late reply, didn't meant to wasting your time. Just that sometimes I'm doing something, I can't reply you immediately. Sorry for that. Forgive me alright? :(
We must meet up in between this week! I MISS YOU LIKE HELL. :(
"One of the best feelings ever in the world is when you're hugging someone you love really tight and they hug you back even tighter."
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